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| It's been a while once again. Been through a couple of changes. Of course i'm 21, legal, and can get into any where i want pretty much. I've had this crisis that I've been going through for a while now and basically it had much to do about me caring what others said and thought about me and I shouldn't let that affect me and I won't let it affect me anymore. I have finally gotten a bit comfortable in my own skin and i believe I'm able to step into the world (i think). I've found myself doin the same things i usually do (stay at the place and play video games) and it hasn't really bother me as much as it has before. I've closed myself off to those that really don't care too much about me or not willing to just talk and see how things are going. Don't really care too much about those anymore
Another crisis that I've came up with is was it a good idea to move away from MS. I mean i have lots of friends there and I definitely enjoyed it there than here but I have to look at it in another side. If I didn't move would I still be playing soccer? would I be playing it here? where exactly would I be and how would I really feel. Never know those answers to those question and I don't know if that's really important in the scheme of things. I do miss it and i would love to come back but I got some business to take care around here before I do anything else.
It might be a while before another entry, well hey at least you'll get more of my thoughts instead of a daily thing in which i don't do too much daily really. Peace out
"tonight you will get your dick ripped off. that doesn't sound right doesn't it?"
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| Yo! It's been one of those days. You know the usual. With school,
practice, and video games. It hasn't been as bad as previous days but
just the same routine. I want to deal with different people and at
least hang out with different people which hasn't really been the case.
But that's alright I guess, I should expect that huh? Well right now
I'm letting FIFA play right now cause i'm in the middle of the
tournament that I created out of my boredom. I don't have a team cause
it would be unfair if I played as one of the teams. We would
automatically win. Beat everybody by six and seven goals and junk like
that. Who's playing do you ask? (not really but I'll say anyway)
Tottenham and Lyon. Lyon is holding a 1-0 lead in the 25th minute. Yeah
I'm debating whether to put an aqua teen hunger force dvd in my
computer and watch it until I'm able to fall asleep. Decisions
Decisions. It's almost the weekend. I'm soo excited to be doing
nothing,half-way sarcastic and halfway truthful, because the
likelilhood of me doing absolutely nothing is very probable. It's fine
for a while but I get sick of it wayy too easy and I really don't know
why. Oh well beats school huh?
"Betcha never had crab dick before have ya?"
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| Yo! things have been goin alright over here. Don't have as much time as
I usually do because of preseason workouts but most of the time when i
have some time to relax i just pop in an aqua teen hunger force dvd and
just chill. It never gets old. Meatwad is my favorite one of them.
Anyway, yeah preseason isn't kickin my ass like i always expect it to
but I am very sore and a bit tired. We just finished our morning
session, it was nice and cloudy with some sprinkles here and there. I
am glad it was overcast or I would have been dripping more sweat which
I was doing anyway with it being overcast. Well there isn't much else
to talk about I haven't had any face-to-face contact with anybody
except the soccer team which isn't a bad thing, but i can't wait until
everybody else gets back in town though and when we finally finish
two-a-days which will be sweet!!!!!. Well anyways Ima try to at least
update weekly or when i have an somewhat interesting day which is
pretty much never. But yeah I'll be back....hopefully
"Don't be jealous cause I'm attractive. Why don't you
go back to your ugly room....and chat with the girl you're afraid to meet in
person."
- Master Shake
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| It really has felt like a wasted day. For most of the day it was spent
either sleepin or watchin aqua teen hunger force which isn't a bad
thing. But there's no cable and video games get very very boring after
a while. But I did exercised a bit, rode my bike out to carmichael turf
fields and kicked the ball with aaron and rode back. Other than that I
went home showered and been playin video games ever since. It gets
desperately boring and lonely when hardly noone talks to you on the
internet and you really don't get that face-to face interaction with
anyone in the outside world. It kinda makes me a bit bitter and do not
want to meet or talk to anyone else. I don't know, i think after a
while I'll just stop caring for people all together and maybe that
won't be the worse thing in the world. I mean if I stop caring then I
can only think about myself and maybe it'll make me more happier than I
am now. But for now sadness rules my life and don't really know how to
change it
"Take me as I am or have nothing at all."
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| Hello, I know it's been a while. I've been off doing things all
summer......umm yeah I'm just joking. But I've been doing summer school
and playing soccer. I did the first session of it and it is one of the
worst grinds to ever go through. Classes for a hour and a half? I'm
definitely not use to that crap. But I did well in both of my classes
that I took and it was all worth it in the end so I can handle that.
Yesterday was just one of those days. I woke up at 7am for no reason
after having about three or four hours of sleep then went back to sleep
until 10am and was looking for my phone so I can head back to Chapel
Hill. I looked everywhere until I called my mom and she had it. I was
very confused on why she has my phone but she did, luckily where she
was at is on my way so I drove over there and picked it up and headed
on my way. Got back to Chapel Hill at around 1pm, did some unpacking at
my new place and chilled out. Luckily we can steal somebody's wireless
so that's a place until the cable company comes in and hooks everything
up. That's right no cable, it's going to suck for the next couple of
days. Went to southpoint for a few to hang while a couple of the guys
got some things. At night, I talked to my friend who was in argentina
and watched dvds for the time. I watched aqua teen hunger force of
course. I went to sleep rather early but the problem was that I kept on
waking up after a couple of hours which didn't make me much happier. So
when I woke up I watched the UNC TV channel that comes on (which is the
only thing that comes on when there's no cable) and I soon fell asleep
cause of watchin that boring mess. Well I don't know what today's going
to bring to me. Probably more boringness like always I don't know I
guess I'm just a boring and bland person and I should accept it.
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